How It Should Have Ended
On their last night before the party
she locked herself in the changing room
ate four arancinis one after the other,
like an animal,
heart racing and cheese dripping,
and her hands losing their grip,
her legs shaking with the force of it,
and she cried.
She cried tears of desperation
for the months she’d spent pretending
for the weeks she’d tried to hide it;
hidden like oh my,
look at this mess
look they’ve made a spectacle
Things would’ve been different,
if she’d heard him come in.
Her dress was itching
and she tried to make a joke,
when he put his hand on her leg
and the arancinis threatened to come up.
Things would have been different.
She ran out on the street but November’s a real bitch
and she almost froze to death trying to shove two fingers down her throat.
Not very glamorous,
but that was their goodbye;
that was how it died
with a hiss and a clash,
in the clamour of the night
in the cold,